I’m back Hopefully.

I’m back finally. Although right now I’m still borrowing a connection from a neighbor. Todd and I finally moved into our new place, but with limited internet connections and a very very very very slow lap top (246 MB RAM or some wierd number) so I haven’t been doing much typing because the computer freaks out.

But I’ll be getting a more stable connection by June 5th but I still won’t be able to play KQ šŸ˜¦ Todd’s computer died, and we just sent in the motherboard today. We tried building a new one, but had a ton of problems. So we took it back.

I haven’t been playing neopets much due to this computer and limited connection.Ā  So I hope I’ll be more active around then especially with ACIV.

By the way I’m TEAM DARIGAN!! (Did I spell it correctly?). I can’t wait to play it but I hope my regular only 1 gig ram computer can play it. I’d be especially upset if it couldn’t, but I believe I did well with it last year.

Anyone want to donate a really exciting computer to me? HAHA. I’m an aspiring teacher. I’d like to teach 1st grade. Yep I figured out my major. Before I picked kindergarten but, its a separate major and goes with daycare, which I don’t want to do. I’ve got 2 more years or more of schooling.

So please bare with me as I get back to blogging and getting back into the swing of things, my office is not finished yet either. So yep that’s what’s up.

I did make a twitter you can follow me my username is Danniegurl. I’m going to tell you I’m a boring person, and update about life, you know like going to work, cleaning playing with the cats etc. But feel free to follow me and give me some @ replies. I might make an account for neopets (separate from my other one, because it fwds to my facebook), but it all depends on how much I get into it.

Speaking about twitter Jellyneo has a twitter go search them too.

life as we know it.

So I think I’m going to be blogging a lot more about general stuff and not just neopets because this is kind of my outlet for the stuff in my life or my day to day junk that no on would really care about! HAHA! Anyways So I went to school today but only for English I skipped Spanish and Math. There was no reason for it really except I just didn’t want to go and sit in the class. But I’ll be going Tuesday! I’m thinking of going into being a teacher. I think I might like to teach Kindergarder or First grade, but I’m not sure yet as my patients level isn’t that low yet and so I’d have to keep myself in check…so I think I’m just going to go and get my liberal arts degree first and then build on that so if I want to be a teacher I can be a teacher even with that.

If its not one thing it’s another!

Alright so I haven’t been on too much lately due to my working and all. Anyways I’ll fill you in at what I’ve been up to or not doing lol.

Well I went to work a few days ago and got pulled aside by Jessica the ETL. (If you’ve ever worked for Target then you’d know what it means) [Executive Team Lead].
Anyways we were going over my school schedule because school starts the 24th and I needed to let them know. Well….they are taking away my title and throwing me down to just a Team Member. I was the Cosmetic Captain which is a Specialist position….I’m not too happy about it, but I’m going to still be doing the same damn thing and I still get the same pay, but just not the title. Which to me is pretty stupid if I’ll still be doing the same job. She said herself that it just needs to be done 1x a week. Basically all I do is “zone” cosmetics which means put things in the right spot tidy it and pull things forward. If I’m still going to be doing that why can’t I still have the title?? I just don’t get it. And I did tell whoever needed to be told I’d be going to school. On top of it they might NOT approve my X-mas vacation to Buffalo for 2 weeks. Which I said if I have to I won’t work there or whatever because I’ll still be going on vacation and the HR chick had written it down when I got hired. So I did tell them what was up before I got hired. Now I’m told they have black out dates in which no one can go on vacation. So ultimately my goal is by next year to have a different job because most likely they won’t be giving me the time off in July and December again. And I know for a fact I will be going again next year. I’ll be 21 so we might even head back down to NYC! It will be so much more exciting. On top of those 2 vacations in April my Dad will be taking me to Vegas because of my 21st birthday! So that’s about 3 vacations in the year 2009. So…yea I don’t know what I’m going to do hopefully Todd can get his drum lessons back up but who knows. But that was my day at work.

Then my bank account OD…(over drafted). We got 2 of the fees waived which is good because it took a good chunk out of my pay check this morning. And I got paid more then we thought I would, which is good.
We still have a ton of bills to pay and we’re scrambling to pay them all. I continue to work and I continue to think this job isn’t getting me the money I need….if I continue getting the hours I am. On top of that I’m concerned when school starts because this time I’ll be working. So my time on the computer will be even more limited. I’m taking 15 credit hours and will be working 20-30 hours a week at work….on top of that I’ll have papers to write for English 102 and Psy101. *sigh* I’m a bit panicked.

On to Neo News. I just found out about the NC Mall goodie bag give away!
What you didn’t know about it either??? Well go on and hop over to the NC Mall. When you get to the main page refresh the page until this sparkley bag appears in the new items list.

Then you can go to your inventory and open the bag.
Inside mine I got:
This might just be the perfect accessory.
Elegant Gold Necklace

This book tells you the materials that are needed for candle making and how to make different styles of candles.
Candle Making

What better gift than a flower you can eat?
Lemon Tulip Lollypop

*nods* The two last items are not NC Mall items. the First one is. (Or I mean a wearable).

At the Library

Well Todd is in a lesson right now so I stopped by the library to hang out. The problem is I have $11 in late fees so I can’t check out any books until I apply a payment to the account. I really need something to read for next week when I fly. *sigh*

I’m in the weirdest mood. It’s a kind of bitchy mood and I’m not sure why. I do think though that one of the things to do with it is that Jenni is having a baby…and well I’m jealousĀ  of it. The reason I’m jealous of it, is because it’s my “thing” something I’m aspiring to. I want to be a mom so badly, and I’m not sure why, everyone says I’m young, which maybe true, but my boyfriend is not. I don’t want him JUST having a baby when he’s 40. It has to be before then. I want a baby badly I want my own family. I guess I’m slightly unhappy. I think I’m unhappy because of our money situation at the moment really sucks. I need to work more, but once school starts I may have to cut back! I hate it. I hate having to work, but I do understand the need to do so. I just want to figure out what exactly I’m going to school for, because I really don’t have a clue, and yet it’s only my 2nd semester in college I’d like to know what I’m striving toward. I want to do something I’ll like or even love. I was thinking of going to be a psycologist, but I’m not sure if that’s something I really want to do. I think I’m more opinionated then anything, but my friends have more often then not come to me for advice that they couldn’t talk to their parents about or things they think their parents might not know. But I’m not sure I completely would love the job. I want to have the capabilitry to go to work when I need to/want to. I’d love to be a SAHM (Stay at home mom). It’s something I long to do. I am so prepared in knowing hopefully what to do for a baby but I’m not mentally, or financially ready to have one, and that’s my down fall. So my goals are to get a job with financial security, and then have a kid. But people say you’ll never be financially ready for a child. But I want to be able to provide for my children. I want them to be able to go to camp, or get a tutor if they need it, and not rely on whether or not mommy’s paycheck can cover the costs of that in addition to the bills. My grandma wants me to be a nurse, but there are so many things you need to remember, and so many names of things I just can’t pronounce. Would you want a nurse working with you if they couldn’t pronounce your problem? I wouldn’t. Less I could tell they had a speech problem or something. I just don’t know what I want to do. I want that job that can’t be outsourced. Because what I really wanted to do, was be a web disigner, but sadly once I get out of college my job will go to India, or Sinapore, or Japan. Places with people who have more edu, and possibly will work for less? I mean why would someone out source a job if they’d have to pay more? Isn’t that what the game’s all about??

I just don’t know. And I hate the fact that even my best friend thinks I complain and bitch too much. I’m not exactly a bitch, I mean some times I do it intentionally, but other times I think there is something wrong with me. I just don’t understand why I can’t be like a “normal” person and not care what that car next to me is doing, or how my boyfriend doesn’t do the things I want right away. I don’t like how I’m acting and yet when I catch myself doing it, I do try and stop but it never seems to last. It’s like I can’t control this impulse to control….which is weird when you say it like that. I have this need to control that can’t be controlled….0.o? Quite strange. I’ve been in councelling and none of that seemed to help. I was thinking of going to an anger management class but I’m not sure if you have to pay, because I don’t have money, and I’m not sure it’s an anger problem.
I mean how am I supposed to figure this out??? Gah.
I’m only angry when things aren’t done the way I want it, how I want it, when I want it etc. So you can imagine whats it’s like to live with someone like me. Some control freak. I mean I do admit I’m not extremely bad as some of the other control people I’ve seen, but it could get worse and I don’t want it to.Ā  I just have no idea.

Oh and I’m annoyed with living in the place I do. but I’ll save that for another post. Unless you guys ask.

I just can’t believe I’m jealous of my best friend. I think one of the other things I’m jealous of is the support and love she’s recieving from her family. They don’t care she’s young (she’ll be 20 in July) they don’t care she’s not legally married they know she’s happy and accept that. However I don’t think that would be the same for my family. I think my family would not be happy about it. I think they’d pressure me into knowing my financial status if I can afford the things I need. They disagree if I had to get state assistance, they wouldn’t care that I’m happy. And I think it would stress me out to no end. I do think though Todd’s family would be accepting and loving no matter what. His younger brothers’ girlfriend is prengnant right now, they are not married and as far as I know haven’t been dating for too long. But his mom is happy. It’ll be her first grandchild. She’d prolly give a lecture, but that’s fine she wouldn’t mean it in a condicending way I know my family would. I think no matter how old I’d be I’d be afriad to tell my family. I’d probably tell them around when I started to show to be honest. I mean who knows that’s something I’ve wanted for a while, and I might not be able NOT to tell them because of excitement, but when I told everyone that Jenni is pregnant I got the “Well don’t you go and get pregnant” like just because she is I’m going to, which was the initial plan, but it wasn’t for like 5 years. Theirs just happened. I want a child badly, but like I said I want to have some financial stability. Be able to save and such. And at the moment with the place I live it isn’t possible.

*sigh*

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Alrighty So yesterday was my first day of work! Now remember I haven’t worked in over a year!!! EPPPP! But I seemed to manage through the 4 hour orientation! Yippee. It consisted of all the things that most stores that have orientations which are equipped with VIDEOS!!! But this was pretty cool because they had candy, chips and soda while we were there. I think I’m going to have fun there as well because they have a lot of incentives to do well and it’s very easy to move up in the ladder! It also doesn’t hurt that I found out instead of getting $8.50/hr I should be getting more then that because I’m a Specialist and not a Team Member. How much more? I forgot to ask before I left. So when I go to work on Tuesday I’ll find out. I think I’m working about 58 hours this week minus some 1/2 hour lunches.

Lets see my best friend moved into the SAME apartment complex as my mom…you know the one who I don’t see or talk to that often!! Yep and did I mention that in my best friends kitchen if you knocked down the wall you’d be in my mom’s apartment….*nods* yeppers!!! How nifty is that. But still I’ll probably go over there more (to my bff’s) now that she lives closer. I like her place it fits them but they only signed a 6 month lease and I’m hoping that they’ll stay longer…I mean it is going to be hard for them to move once the baby is born!! I’m so excited!! Sometimes I think I’m more excited then Jenni…who knows though. I spent all day over there actually I went there after orientation went home ran some errands and then went back over there around 10pm and just got home now (3:02am).

I’m actually a bit tired. So if I don’t make any sense on some things that’s why.

I’m supposed to go to my grandma’s house tomorrow for a get-together for my mom’s 44th b-day….I’ll probably go…I’m just tired and I like to sleep in…a lot.

I also need to do laundry, and clean our side of the house. It’s driving me nuts.

It’s just so messy! sooner or later I’ll have to clean it.

I think that might be what I’m going to do. But I’ll see how I feel in the A.M.

Good Night.

Oh Wow!

Alright well it’s down to one week until I am no longer a teenager and there is no turning back.
It’s crazy to think that on April 3rd I’ll be turning 20 and my best friend Megan will be turning 21 on the 22 of April! It is insane, because we’ve known each other since we were 8/9. It’s always funny because I always tell her I can be the same age as her for 2 weeks!
I just can’t believe it, where did my life go? How did it go so fast? Can I make it slow down, I know I wanted to grow up and all that, but it seems a little *too quick*.
It’s amazing how things can change, and how I still remember life before everyone moved out and went to college.

Lets see:
I’m turning 20 I live with my boyfriend and 4 cats (along with 2 dogs 4 other cats and 3 other people)
My best friend is turning 21 and lives in NC going to college there, and doing things she’s never been known for (ie: taking more risks and being more outgoing).
Jenni, she’ll be 20 in July and she’s going to get married soon she’ll be having a baby in September.
A girl I used to be friends with in 6th grade is now married and will be having a baby as well.
A few of the girls I went to school with already have kids, and some are already married.
OMG it’s just surreal, I mean if I’m going through this revelation will what will I be going through when I turn 30, or 40……I’ll let you know. Who Knows if I’ll still be blogging by then….but hopefully things will have changed more.

GAH! I want a new theme!

I want a new theme but it doesn’t seem like wordpress has come out with a new one I like.
I want something perhaps with a black background purple text and 3 colomns similar to this theme that I currently have.

Yep.

*sigh*

So I’m home and it seems like I don’t have too much to do. I just did all these things:
Cleaned the bathroom
Currently doing laundry
Bathed 3 kittens

Not too much but I started at around 10pm. It’s now 1:05am.

I have to put the laundry in the drier then put another load of laundry in the washer. I swear I’ve got about 400lbs of clothing!

Ahhh I just remembered I have my computers Midterm on Tuesday and I haven’t studied! EPPP!
:/ well I guess I’ll have to study tomorrow, yes I’m a procrastinator!

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